I have begun to expect the unexpected over the last few months, really for the last several years. This week continues to be no different. My chemo appointment on Wednesday was also with my oncologist and I was told that my white blood cell counts were getting low. I was not expecting that! Usually that doesn’t happen until later on. So I had to get a Neupogen injection Thursday and Friday, which will help my body stimulate more white blood cells. White blood cells help your body fight against infection, which is something I need to prevent. The main side effect of the medicine is joint pain, which is what the Carboplatin’s side effect that I got Wednesday is. Lets just say, I went to Publix and bought a bag of Epsom salt to be prepared. Hoping for good blood work next week.
During this time of being diagnosed with breast cancer, I have also been having some issues in my pelvic region. I had an ultrasound done, a surprise biopsy (Ouch, that hurts thinking about it!), followed by an MRI. Friday, as Jonathan and I sat with Dr. McAlpine going over the results, I couldn’t believe I was hearing him say, they are concerned I may have cervical cancer. Really?! Did I hear him say that? What are the odds of having two types of cancer? God, how can this be? Am I really going to have to fight two cancers?
I wanted to say what my doctor said, but he beat me to it, “What the crap?” I didn’t even know how to react. I wanted to cry, but I also wanted to laugh, because I just can’t believe it. Dr. McAlpine did let us know that he is fairly confident I don’t have cervical cancer, since my biopsy results already came back clear; however, because it is me (I have surprised him several times over the years not being typical!), he wants me to see the gynecology oncologist for a consultation and a D&C to get more tissue samples for further testing. We are praying for good results!
This week has also consisted of taking my Sunshine to the doctor because he cannot get rid of a cough. We have been so prophylactic and trying to keep germs down in our house. I can’t take any chances, especially with my counts being low this week. Surprise, he has pneumonia! This mommy’s heart is being broken! Relying on others to take care of my little guy is not easy for me. I want to be the one who takes care of him, but I know that I can’t catch anything. Thankfully, pneumonia is not contagious, but I still need to be cautious. He is already getting better with the medications, so I am thanking God for that.
So yes, this week continues to be the theme of my life…expecting the unexpected. Before I walked into Dr. McAlpine’s office, the radio was playing this song. Trust in You by Lauren Daigle (I think I have found my theme song.) I know God was asking me to further continue to trust in Him. My loving God knew before I walked in my doctor’s office, I would again hear unexpected news, and wanted to remind me to trust and lean on Him, for He still holds me. Psalm 31:14 But I am trusting you, O Lord, saying, “You are my God!” My future is in your hands.
God is the only one that knows what our future holds and what is ahead of us for tomorrow. I pray that we will want what God has for us and nothing less! His plans are always good! Isaiah 26:3-4 You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you! Trust in the Lord always, for the Lord God is the eternal Rock.